بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
Alhamdulillah, nothings broken but I’ve fractured my hip. I have two options, an operation or 3 months bed rest. I’ll make Istikhaara before I decide. Many people may see this as a calamity which I also did so at first so I read the dua for when afflicted with any calamity:
اللهم اجرني في مصيبتي واخلفلي خيرا منها
Allahuma’ jurni fee museebatee wa akhlifli khayram minha
But then I realised this was not a calamity. This was a reminder from Allah as well as a favour from him. This was a blessing in disguise. This was an opportunity that I should make the most of. Especially now that my family had a bit of a scare and are a little extra sensitive and protective over me they would be more willing to do whatever I asked. I had feared alienating them so I hadn’t really pushed them towards becoming better muslims but now I realised that this was a reminder that we all have to pass away someday. We don’t know when but if it is today are we ready to go?
How do I know that my family is even going to be making dua for me when I haven’t prepared them for this. Am I going to be at ease knowing my family is on siraatal mustaqeem or turning in my grave in fear of what will happen to them? Am I even ready to die myself?
Allah had given us a life of ease but we used it to disobey him. When something happens we quick to question why me, but do we even realise how much Allah has favoured us and how ungrateful we are? Now that he is testing me and sending me this reminder I am not going to be like that. This is not a calamity but a favour from Allah and a means to wipe out my sins as well as a reminder that this worldly life will soon come to an end.
My family will be here any minute as it’s currently visiting hours. I have a request for each of them in striving to be better Muslims. I just hope they take it well and actually choose to carry it out. When everyone is trying and helping each other to become better Muslims it becomes easier to reach our goal.
I think I’m not going to go for the operation because if my body can heal itself then why must I go through all this extra pain which sometimes causes bigger complications. It sad that the doctors of today worry more about money than about the actual lives and health of fellow human beings. “Operate” is generally the first thing they tell you when something is wrong but I guess we can’t stereotype and place all of them in this category.