بِسْمِ اللهِ الرَّحْمٰنِ الرَّحِيْمِ
Dedicated to Asma and Berry for all the duas and concern.
And then, the thread snapped! I sank down to the ground, hitting the sidewalk with a thump, not caring that I was probably ruining my clothing. And then, the floodgates opened and a torrent of tears gushed forth! The sad reality is that I was LOST.
Pull yourself together I eventually told myself thinking back to the last time I cried like this. I must have been around 6 years old. It was due to one of our fights. Khalid and I were constantly at each others throats when were little. Actually that hasn’t changed much. Trying to pacify me and get me to stop crying Naani had taken me with her. She sat on her musallah and placed me on her lap. She then told me lifting my hands in dua, “Allah accepts the duas of small children and Allah loves when you cry and make dua so come quickly lets make dua,”…Thats it!
قال رسول الله صلى الله عليه وسلم
إِنَّ الدُّعَاءَ يَنْفَعُ مِمَّا نَزَلَ وَمِمَّا لَمْ يَنْزِلْ فَعَلَيْكُمْ عِبَادَ اللَّهِ بِالدُّعَاءِ
“All those calamities and misfortunes that descends and that which will descend in the future can be averted and protected from, by Du‘a. So, Oh servant of Allah! Observe Du‘a!”
Who was going to find me if I didn’t even know where I am myself? Who was going to find me when I don’t think anybody even knew I’m lost? The one who knows, Allah! I raised my hands in dua and begged of Allah to guide me and help me find my way both physically and spiritually, to help me find my way home and to find my way to siraatal mustaqeem. I eventually ended my dua with “..Yaa Allah if you help me find my way, I vow to go into Niqaab” I cried finally realising a little of the wisdom behind it.
There are two steps to dua naani would always tell us:
- Making your dua begging from Allah for whatever you want and
- Making an effort to acquire whatever you asked for
Now that I had made dua it was time to make an effort. I took a deep breath to calm myself, wiped my tears and stood up looking around me for any clue as to where I was. Alhamdulillah it wasn’t some totally deserted place. There were many houses around me but not many people currently. While observing my surroundings I spotted someone in the courtyard of one of the houses at the end of the street and walked towards it. I hope whoever it is can help me, I hope I can trust them, I hope … I froze in my tracks at this thought. I closed my eyes saying ‘Ya Allah please don’t let it be a criminal, please help me, please don’t let this situation get any worse, I don’t think I’ll be able to handle it, Ya Allah help me.’ I then read Ayatul Kursi before opening my eyes only to realise …